Through the eyes of Melissa

 I find myself thinking about if this is actually where I want to be.  Walking up each day feeling pressured is hard. No matter what you do it just always feels like it is never good enough for the people around you. In the darkest of times while going through depression you find yourself alone. When you are happy there are a lot of people present but they all disappear in your time of need. Being troubled by depression is one of the hardest things in life. It gets worse when you grow up in a country where you are frowned at or given ridiculed when you mention anything that portrays you as weak. People think that mental illness is a joke and it is only serious when you are literally eating from the bin. We need to stop this backward thinking. A lot of us are suffering from a lot of trauma that we ourselves lash out at others about. It may not their fault that we are going through this stress but they could have triggered it in a way that we might even get ourselves in trouble.  Sigh. I

 Some may say there are no good men in the world but there are... I hate when generalize and class ppl because most ppl they know are messed up... There are good men in the world just like how there are good women in the world.... Ppl do BS and messed up stuff but no one knows the reason some ppl do stuff for a reason while some (both men and women) are just genuinely some real johncrow... When we keep saying no man no good or no woman no good we make our kids grow up with that mentality and then they act how they hear us say all women or all men act... We need to watch what we say or do in front of our kids and we also need to stop generalizing ppl not just in this instant but in others also #thinking_about_life #thinking_out_of_the_box

 I have rarely given myself credit for all the obstacles I overcame in silence. the sacrifices I have made to elevate my life to another level solely. My late nights and early mornings. tirelessly working to upgrade myself and mentality.  Tonight I say am proud of me. I am proud and happy that I overcame adversities that other ppl couldn't have. I pressed on even when I failed.  I continually tried until I became successful in the matter at hand. I am proud of me even if no one else is. For I know God favors me.. I still have a long way to go but I had to stop in my tracks just to say I am proud of me. I rise Am proud of me on a journey to win gotta make my daughter proud  God favors me leveled up upgrading life in silence maturing everyday

 This election has been one filled with suspense and drama. Two rival parties went head to head to see who America would choose to lead them for the next 4 years. war brew and protest ignited throughout the year 2020. we saw alot of things come to play, things that were for far too long swept under the rug.  Joe Biden at the end of the election came out victorious not only that but his team made history.  the first woman and person of color to become vice president.. now that is something that will be mentioned in history classes for a while.. 8 or so years ago we had our first black president and now yet another milestone.. while some Americans are happy and some are distraught let's just hope for the best as whatever takes place in the United states of America affects alot of different countries.

 A sudden chill of sadness rushed through her body as she laid in bed that night, reminiscing on all the the things she did that was spitefully taken for granted it was like all the other nights. The salty tears left Stephanie's dark brown eyes and flowed down her pale brown face before soaking into her pillow. To her it was if she was drowning in her own tears there was no one there to save her from herself. All the people who said they cared only came around to flood her mind with their pain and sorrow. She listened because she cared for them even more than she did for herself and now it was slowly killing her inside. She gave up trying to talk to people about her pain for she saw she only spoke in vain. Even though she lived in a house flooded with family members it was as if she was isolated on an island.   Things weren't always like this she would try to convince herself but deep down she knew that was mendacious. This was her life for as far as she could remember the only

 Welcome back Guys, So I know it has been a while and all since I written, I have been busy and as such I am just getting the chance.  2020 has come up with a lot of challenges and also it has open my eyes to a lot of things. I have won battles that I never thought was possible for me to win. I have accomplished a lot of things through hard work, perseverance and determination. This pandemic has given me your resources and enough time to revamp my goals and the plan that I had to ascertain theme. Things I was putting off for a later date I got the time to put a plan in place and achieve majority of them.  I didn't see the glass half empty I rather saw it half full. I prayed , I worked hard and most importantly I never gave up. No matter how many times you fail never under any circumstances give up on your goals! Live laugh love Enjoy life to the fullest...